In Memory Of Friendships Past

I write this post in memory of friendships past. Those men and women who came into my life for a season of time and have left an indelible mark. Some of us parted amicably, others naturally and some drowning in a pool of animosity. Regardless of the circumstances and the words spoken, I thank you. I thank you all. Thank you for being so gracious to teach me priceless lessons. Thank you for giving me your time, for the immeasurable amounts of advice, for the care and above all for the love you bestowed.

Although now we rarely speak and some us walk past each other as though we were strangers, I do hope you know that I’m grateful. I’m not angry or bitter. For some friendships I feel sadness, because I know our pride, stubbornness and inability to compromise brought blossoming relationships to an abrupt end. As it’s inappropriate to communicate with your adversaries, there's no real way of relaying my gratitude without seeming disingenuous. So I have no choice but to use this medium. Juxtaposed with the depth of what we had, it feels rather hollow, but I hope I manage to convey how I feel.

For each friend I lost, through you I gained something that has made me me. You taught me things like humility, confidence, diligence, fearlessness, how to hustle, how to make my hair look great on a budget, how to effectively stalk a man without letting him know you’re stalking him…. : ) How to not care what people think, how to care more about what those that matter think and how to let go....(well almost!).

Perhaps one day we’ll meet again, all will be forgotten and we’ll be friends like we used to. Except things can never be how they used to can they? I’ve changed, you’ve changed and in the real world our decisions aren’t made in vacuum. Reembarking on our friendship would be a road rife with insurmountable complications and I do think we’ve all moved on. Well…almost. You don’t ever ‘move on’ do you? Because old friends like old lovers remain implanted in the walls of our soul forever.

If we get to do this life thing again and we’re reincarnated into new beings, I hope our paths cross again. This time I pray we get it right and have the privilege of watching each other grow old in harmony. Until then, for your presence in my life this time around, I thank you.

Christiana xxx

* This post is dedicated to a special friend who was once like a sister. I wish you well. This universe and all its abundance is yours. Love & Light xxx*